You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have

haha, so wanna hear something funny? Jonathan says he has an engagement ring for me! It makes me laugh...partly because I believe it and partly because I don't. Jonathan likes to screw with me, but he seems so serious, that I think he might really have it. LOL. The other day, his trunk was open and i was just being a pest and moving things around and looking through it. He told me to stop being nosy and get out of the trunk, and when i asked him why he told me that my engagement ring was in there. Then he got all serious and said, "please just stay out of the trunk." ??????? So i'm thinking he might have it, but then I'm trying not to get my hopes up either! But I think it would be absolutely wonderful to be engaged to the man I love. 

I wish I could be home this week with my mom. She is healing from her surgery, and I wish I was there to help take care of her. She sent me pics and omg..she looks like she is in so much pain. And I talked to alex tonight, he isn't helping at all! that kinda irritates me. He should be helping her around the house. He's just not the same sensitive alex that he used to be.

So I have an appointment with my guidance counselor this week. I'm applying to psych and soc. I think I might have a backup plan if I don't get into Psych. If I get into Soc, I might not only do some counseling, but also try to do some social work. I might even do that if I get into Psych. It's just been something I've been thinking a lot about lately.